** not a naked lady post so feel free to ignore.
There is a quote I have always loved, “Today you are You, that is truer than true, there is no one alive who is youer than You.”
And from now on that is the saying which I choose to live by. Since I can remember, and probably before than, I have longed to be someone else. I have looked at pictures of girls who are 6ft tall and have less body fat than a new born and thought I want to look like that too! It doesn’t matter how unrealistic, my ribs stick out dramatically and I’m still considered overweight, I’m always going to be small and my legs are always going to be thick. It’s crazy isn’t it? The way you compare yourselves to other people, want to be everything you cannot possibly be. But that needs to change. I know my boyfriend thinks girls with long long dark hair and lots of make up are the prettiest, so for the longest time that’s what I’ve tried to be. I’ve wanted to have dark hair to my waist and fake lashes, too much make up. And then I realised, that’s not who I am. I, ever since I can remember, have wanted to be blonde. I’ve wanted blonde hair and a tan. So why haven’t I dyed my hair blonde and got a tan? Why have I tried so hard to be something else?! I’ve always felt like if I want to be attractive I have to be skinny, I have to be hips and bones and tiny. I don’t even find that attractive! I like big bums and thick thighs and toned fit bodies. SO WHY DON’T I HAVE THAT? Why have I always felt bad for not being thin when… I don’t even want to be thin! I want to be ME! I want my thighs to be toned, by booty to stay big, my hair is now blonde and I can tan at any point. I WANT TO BE WHO I WANT TO BE. Not what I think other people will find attractive but what I find attractive. That’s why, my new life resolution, is to remember that. Remember that everything I do, is for myself, my boyfriend was attracted to be when I was two dress sizes bigger, and he’s going to continue to love me when I finally become the me I’m happy with. And if I love me, what else matters? So stop. Stop looking at these people who aren’t you, and you won’t be, and start concentrating on you. Be the best that you can be. No matter what, there’s something beautiful about you, and the sooner you see it, the sooner everyone else will see it. Stop trying to be someone else. Fight as hard as you can to accept yourself and love yourself. And remember, there is no one alive who is youer than you.